Especially in the same areas of life. It eats at your self esteem and tears apart your trust in anyone who dissents your self degradation.
I've gone from being liked but needing to change to being loved "but my dreams are more important right now", and back. I think I've experienced it so much that I began to wear it and now I don't know whether success is an excuse or a reason -- but if wishing did any good, I'd wish for just a fraction of the support I was willing to give to the dreams of those that I loved.
Support has become a big deal for me although it never was before. I guess I just want to know that if I end up marrying a regular man, he will understand how necessary his support of my art will be -- and if I end up marrying a fellow artist, I'd hope that my art isn't expected to be sacrificed, just because I'm the woman.
And that's where I am now -- wanting to love and be loved but not willing to sacrifice my energy for just anyone; particularly someone who is just curious about me. I find that that has happened a lot.
Kimolee Eryn is an artist and writer who believes in creating for a purpose beyond the purpose of creating. She believes that a life should be lived not just to sustain itself but to cultivate peace, love and growth in all adjacent beings and hopes to exemplify that in all she does.