I don't remember when my thoughts developed feelings,
but I feel things when I fear things,
when I want things, then I hear things,
I'm a scared thing and I fear him with the will to reel me in,
and I know I'll lose my strength if I'm revealed to him,
but his energy's so real that I concede my sins,
and I don't feel love enough so my caution meets the wind.
And, I warned you about my baggage and the trouble that I might be,
and I didn't get the memo to pack lightly,
it's frightening that the weakness of my past came back to bite me,
like, I'm doomed to fall in love with any nigga that might like me,
I'm a lonely soul, and my daddy didn't like me,
so if a man proclaimed his love, I'd think he was lying just to try me,
I don't think highly of, the amount of times I thought I've been in love,
but I wish peace to all the boys that I know I really didn't love.
I'll bear these broken hearts until I've had enough.. and I'll get it right eventually, cause I want it bad enough.
But these memories deliver feelings in different ranges,
from a reality composed of imperfect stages,
and my mind is all I control so as strange as it seems,
I revisit and relive it to make the necessary changes
And, I just wish you told me, that your mind could change so instantly
I'm haunted by the thought that we were good and in an instant we were nothing,
like my lonely mind produced you, but, I'll know what's real next time, now that we have been reduced to memories,
and I heard you say you promised to remember me, but it's now and you're not here when just last year I was your destiny
these bags contain what's left of me.. and I'm too progressed to fear what's next so there should be no regret for me
but I felt the fear suppressing me, and all of the progress that I made, in one brush, it was swept from me.
I wish I would've known this then, this self taught gem
Grabbed my dress by the hem and picked my bags up right where I left them
but I had to walk backwards to get them.... Pack Light
Kimolee Eryn is an artist and writer who believes in creating for a purpose beyond the purpose of creating. She believes that a life should be lived not just to sustain itself but to cultivate peace, love and growth in all adjacent beings and hopes to exemplify that in all she does.